happy feet
didn't turn out very happy in some bits. in fact, contrary to the light-hearted, silly little romp the title implies, some parts are down-right heavy, self-important and ambitious. but the happy parts ARE just too cute (surprisingly) and i am now wanting a Lovelace-choking-as-he-keeps-upright-in-the-ice-storm action figure. i want one that cackles and spits and chokes. what are the chances of finding that?
anyway, a tap-dancing penguin with a cause got me thinking about mine (again). i know, i know, you'll say it's 'another one of those days' when i look out the window and think about other things. but i can't help it. i was in a cab this morning heading back to the office from another long and pointless meeting about small and unimportant things, and it just came to me - i don't want to do this anymore.
i can only keep distracting myself with a mildly interesting initiative for a kinder client, or a new shoot that'll prove to be fun, or a cool costume for the christmas party, but you know what? after everything, after i close the window after distracting myself with another wiki article, or after walking back to my desk after successfully clearing with dave, i'm still bored. the way i was bored in bangkok, not having work. here, i do have work, bored-busy, busy-bored with self-important and ambitious campaigns to sell soup.
you'll say i'm whining. i got what i wanted and now that i have it i want something else. well, i've always wanted something else haven't i? and now i wonder why i never went for that. in the cab this morning, heading back to the office from another long and pointless meeting about small and unimportant things, it just came to me - i want my life to change next year.
and not just a - move to another country but still do the same thing - kind of change. but a bigger, deeper change. heck, maybe a total overhaul. of course, i'll keep some things. maybe it's just a matter of moving things around a bit so i can do more of what i really want to. i don't know yet really. i don't know anything for sure. but a change is coming. please let it be coming. something that could be heavy, self-important and ambitious too, but at least, moving along on happy feet.
anyway, a tap-dancing penguin with a cause got me thinking about mine (again). i know, i know, you'll say it's 'another one of those days' when i look out the window and think about other things. but i can't help it. i was in a cab this morning heading back to the office from another long and pointless meeting about small and unimportant things, and it just came to me - i don't want to do this anymore.
i can only keep distracting myself with a mildly interesting initiative for a kinder client, or a new shoot that'll prove to be fun, or a cool costume for the christmas party, but you know what? after everything, after i close the window after distracting myself with another wiki article, or after walking back to my desk after successfully clearing with dave, i'm still bored. the way i was bored in bangkok, not having work. here, i do have work, bored-busy, busy-bored with self-important and ambitious campaigns to sell soup.
you'll say i'm whining. i got what i wanted and now that i have it i want something else. well, i've always wanted something else haven't i? and now i wonder why i never went for that. in the cab this morning, heading back to the office from another long and pointless meeting about small and unimportant things, it just came to me - i want my life to change next year.
and not just a - move to another country but still do the same thing - kind of change. but a bigger, deeper change. heck, maybe a total overhaul. of course, i'll keep some things. maybe it's just a matter of moving things around a bit so i can do more of what i really want to. i don't know yet really. i don't know anything for sure. but a change is coming. please let it be coming. something that could be heavy, self-important and ambitious too, but at least, moving along on happy feet.
posted by pro at 21:23
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Ah but a man's reach should exceed his grasp,
Or what's a heaven for? - Robert Browning, Andrea del Sarto
It's really sad that I've turned into a quoter. But you're Pia, and if there's anyone who can pull off heavy, self-important, and ambitious, it's you. There's a real compliment in there, somewhere. Anyway, here's to your deeper change!
awwww. snifff. i love you guys :(
think i'll hug you next time i see you. miguel, pwedeng manly handshake na lang, sige.
and since you're so supportive, papa-kainin nyo ba ko pag wala na akong kinikita? hahahaha. kidding.
yup handshake. if ever hug, we can do the manly hug, quick and with closed fists. kunwari fierce.
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